This site and its materials are the product of a very protracted search to learn how to meditate.
I have studied most extensively in the Mahayana and Tantric traditions, while also practicing Dhyana in the Yogic tradition of Patanjali. Additionally, I have studied in the Theravada tradition. These were the early foundations of my practice until I found the Modern Mystery School, which was exactly what I had been searching for and more.
The desire to learn about meditation first came to me when I was five years old sitting in church. The priest was reading the bible, and he said, "Meditate on God's word daily." So, I asked my mother what "meditate" meant, and she said, "I believe it means 'to think'." I told her that this could not be right because the priest had once said that King James ordered that each word be translated precisely from the original Hebrew, Greek, and Aramaic, so if that were the case, it would say, "think about God's word daily". My father told me that I should ask my uncle because he had done two years of monastic service that included daily meditation. So that summer, I watched my uncle very carefully and when my family went to the temples, I stayed close by and copied him. By the end of the summer, I had learned to pray like a monk, but I was disappointed that I had not learned to meditate.
This drive to figure out how to meditate stayed with me - there was no other information accessible to me at the time - so once I got my first job and had more agency over my life, I started meditating with Tibetan monks. In the beginning, every time I sat to meditate, energy started coursing up my spine, which was very distracting and concerning. I now understand what was happening, but at the time, other meditators and my yoga teachers hadn’t experienced this, so I read some books and tried other forms of meditation. Along the way, I had read that you should not expect much, so I kept at it and felt pretty sure that I was doing everything wrong.
Meditation is listening to the divine
After about ten years, I felt a glimmer of success when I sat with a visiting teacher who had learned Tantric meditation in the Himalayas, so I sat at every session that he offered. Finally, I had a barebones understanding of the practice. This teacher had made a few recordings, so I used those as "training wheels". From there, I was able to start building a practice that seemed to more closely match what I had read about meditation.
Everything changed when I started attending meditations with the Modern Mystery School. I had put over fifteen years into my practice at this point, but my first meditation with the mystery school was like growing up in black and white and then seeing the world in color for the first time. I realized then that there was immense potential for a much deeper experience.
The Max Meditation, created by the founder of the Modern Mystery School, can be taught on the internet in real time; but most of the mystery school meditations are taught in the oral tradition of an in-person handing down. Because for most of these meditations, there are energetic keys and initiations that must be passed down, and this can only be done when working in-person with the full physical presence of the person's aura.
These keys go beyond entrainment, which in meditation, is when a meditator links to the mental frequency of a master teacher during meditation and the teacher is able to guide the student to a deeper meditation.
It is my hope that in compiling this site, that you have a much faster success rate using these "training wheels" and that it provides help finding a teacher to supplement your practice, as well as an understanding of the importance of studying with a teacher directly.
I thank you for your time and consideration.
Namaste.
